Humpday Confessions!

It's that time again. And by "that", I of course mean that since it's Wednesday, it's time to link up with Miss Canadian CrazyPants herself, and get real. Word, yo. 

Today I confess...

...I am legitimately worried that I will seriously injure myself on Saturday. I mean, it's going to suck to do this race anyway because of the running and the obstacle course, and the sun that gets insanely hot at insanely early times... But apart from that, my body is just a general mess, and I tend to get injured pretty easily when I'm not exerting myself or going through a bunch of obstacles. Fingers crossed, people. 

...it's been one of those days where literally everything is bothering me. I have been powering through work stuff all day, but still don't feel like I've gotten anything done, my house is still a mess (or way more of a mess than I'd like it to be), my to-do list is a mile long, and my anxiety is through the roof. Today I wished more than once that I actually took medication for anxiety, because every once in a while (like today), it comes swooping in like a freaking freight train, and completely takes over my brain. 

...I have discovered a couple of bloggers lately who, while I really don't care too much for what they have to say, I find strangely fascinating. It's a weird thing for me to be completely uninterested in someone, and yet so completely interested at the same time. The only way I can explain it is that it's sort of like a car crash - the kind where you don't know anyone, so it doesn't affect you at all, but still, you can't look away. And even that isn't quite right. Either way, it's just weird. 

...sometimes having a really good understanding of spelling/grammar is frustrating, because it's annoying when people get it wrong.. Especially the really simple stuff that EVERYONE should know....which happens ALL THE FREAKING TIME. I'm not saying that in an "oh look at me I'm so smart" way, but more in like a "seriously people, get it together and be better than this".  

...I really hate Times New Roman or Comic Sans fonts. I know resumes are "technically" supposed to be written in TNR font, but I just can't bring myself to do it because I think it's really ugly. 

...my desk is a complete and total disaster right now. I can't work well in chaos, so I know that it's probably having at least a tiny impact on my productivity, but it seems like no matter what I do right now, I can't get it organized to save my life. I don't know what's wrong with me. Other than the aforementioned Stage 5 Clinger anxiety I've got going on. 

...I really can't think of anything else right now. My brain is fried, and all I want to do is go to bed and sleep and forget about stress and work and most of life in general for like, a whole solid week just so I can reset myself. First class passenger on the struggle bus, right here. 

What are your confessions? Link up with Kathy and tell me secrets, it will make me feel better. And also my hair will have more volume. #science

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Also linking up with Liz for her blog hop - please make sure you head over and check it out!  

Currently

**I found this prompt in an old Evernote notebook today, but apparently I wasn't smart enough to document where I got it.. So if this is your list that I'm blatantly copying, I'm really sorry, and I mean no offense.**

Currently.....

Stressing me out: Thinking about the BadAss Dash this weekend (which will probably kill me dead), still being far away from Boyfriend, and work. 

Making me cry: Well I'm not crying right now, but I did just write a little note to my not-quite-here-yet niece when I sent her baby shower gift, and I teared up at that a little bit. I'm such a sap. 

Addicted to: KickStarts, duh. What else would there be??

Making me laugh: Thinking about funny inside jokes I have with Boyfriend, and Impractical Jokers show playing in the background

Reading: WAY TOO MANY THINGS. But um, "Loose Girl", "They Never Die Quietly" and "The Nazi Officer's Wife".... to name half of them. I do too many things at once. 

Frustrated with: not losing any weight, being far away from Boyfriend (I just miss that kid..cue iconic teardrop a la Lauren Conrad), work (seems to be a trend), my sore shoulder. 

Resisting: The temptation to spend ALL of my monies on Lulu clothes, the last Girl Scout cookie, the urge to make some snarky comments about some frustrating people, the chocolate mint cookie dough in the fridge, and another cup of coffee

Missing: Boyfriend. Duh. And also Leah.

Loving: Sunshine and blue skies, skype dates with Boyfriend, the brilliance that is Evernote, and having a laundry room closet in my house. 

Wanting: A VACATION, a really long massage, to win the lottery, and more time in the day so I could do more things than just work all the freaking time. :) Be it known, however, that even though work is really frustrating right now, I am incredibly thankful that I have a job. It could always be worse. :) 


What are you up to lately?

Confessional Friday!!

Hi! I've fallen behind again on whatever random, arbitrary schedule of blogging someone once said people should follow. I don't necessarily agree with it, and I pretty much do whatever I want, so #sorrynotsorry.

But since I really enjoy doing Wednesday's link up with this goofball but was an absolute loser and didn't make it this week, I am joining Leslie for confession, since it's all gotta come out sometime, right?

Here we do go.

I confess // I have had probably one of the worst weeks I've had in a long time. Work has been....well, I really can't say anything nice about any of it right now, so we'll just leave it at that. I've been exhausted, also, which doesn't help anything, since I'm all about sitting at home and eating something delicious rather than going for a walk or working out or something. I have dragged my sorry ass through two Zumba classes this week, and I swear, I very nearly died in both of them (also, I'm not dramatic at all). Here's hoping I wake up next week.

I confess // I can't keep flowers alive to save my life. I got a beautiful bouquet last week, and put them in cool water with the food stuff, and then changed the water and put more food stuff in there a few days later, and then here I am now with dead flowers. A green thumb, I clearly am not.

I confess // my house is an absolute disaster. I need to vacuum everything. I need to scrub all the floors. I need to organize my office. I need to figure out what kind of tornado went through my closet, and also fix it. I need to organize my kitchen. Basically, everything that needs to be done for a house to be in good shape needs to be done at mine. But because of the aforementioned exhaustion, I really would rather sit on the couch and watch "Chopped" than clean, so it's still dirty. I'm terrible, I know.

I confess // I have seen four seasons of "The Vampire Diaries", so I already know what happens in them, but I can't watch it while I'm falling asleep because I am a baby and will get completely creeped out.

I confess // I really, really want pizza for lunch. Like really a lot. #fattyfattytwobyfour

Also - I have had this song on repeat this week: I don't even know what it's saying, but I like it.

these are my confessions

Happy Wednesday, everybody. I'm linking up with everyone's favorite Asian for some confession action today, so let's jump right into it.

// I very accidentally slept until almost 9am this morning. I usually wake up between 6:30-7 and actually get out of bed around 7-7:30, but somehow today, the stars just weren't aligned for that.

// In keeping with the theme of my last confession, I am at my worst in the morning. I take a really long time to actually wake up enough to get moving in the morning, which is why I have to build in at least a 30-minute buffer between when I wake up and when I actually SHOULD be awake.

// Remember a while ago when I said that I think it would be cool to be a Zumba instructor? Well last night, I got my chance! The Z Spot had a "Client Night" where clients were able to choose the songs and get up and lead the dances, so Dedra and I got together and led "Counting Stars". It was terrifying, for sure, but still so much fun! I wasn't able to get it on video, so that stinks, but maybe next time.

// This one might make people mad at me, but in the spirit of true honesty, I get a big kick out of sites like GOMI. I do not agree with the notion of purposely saying crappy stuff about people for no reason other than to say crappy things, but some of the stuff that people come up with to complain about is ridiculously hilarious. More on this topic to come in a later post, I imagine...

// I had some really weird, jacked up dreams last night/this morning. Dreams that are still making me wonder what the hell my subconscious is up to, because yuck.

// Right now, I'd give literally almost anything to go on a vacation, the kind that comes with umbrella drinks, and beaches, and hours of free time to read, and bikinis, and nothing but sunshine and blue skies as far as the eye can see. I'm tired, and my brain needs a break.

Sunday Social

1. Who do you call when you need to vent? Boyfriend, my dad, or Dedra, depending on the topic
2. Where do you go when you need alone time? My office usually
3. What is your favorite alone time activity? Reading or watching TV or writing
4. What is something we should all stop and read right now? An old-school etiquette book so maybe people could start behaving like ladies and gentlemen again instead of like hoodlums. 
5. Who do you wish would read your blog that doesn’t already? Family? Celeb? No one really. If someone wants to read my blog, that's great. If they don't, that's perfectly fine too. 

5 on Friday

This is my fourth post this week, people. That's right...FOURTH. It's like somehow the stars aligned for me to actually have things to say consistently this week, so that's just fabulous.

This is my first time participating in this link up ! 

1 // People are funny. And kind of crazy. But mostly just funny, even when they're crazy.
2 // This weekend, I am planning to do a massive amount of cleaning in my house. Like, deep clean bathrooms, scrub floors, clean out the refrigerator, etc. Fingers crossed I actually stay this motivated about when it is actually time to do it. :)
3 // People who flat out refuse to confront someone who has done something that hurt/bothered/otherwise offended them, and instead talk about the person to other people, just drive me bonkers. Public Service Announcements: We are all adults here, and things would be solved much more quickly and easily if we would just talk TO each other instead of ABOUT each other. Admittedly, there are times when I am guilty of doing this same thing because I'm pretty much awful at, and totally terrified of, confrontation, but I am getting better at it.
4 // Lately I have been rewatching "The Vampire Diaries" from the beginning. It's such a weird show, but still somehow strangely addictive. I don't know when or why everyone suddenly started being obsessed with vampires.. I'm not, in fact I really don't usually like anything related to vampires because I think it's kind of stupid, but I do like this show.
5 // I really, really miss having a membership at a gym with a pool. Swimming laps is one of my favorite ways to workout, but not having a pool is making that difficult. Hopefully, that will be remedied soon.


I have been listening to this song a lot lately. Not quite sure why, I just know that I really like it. 

And lastly... I have decided that I really need to organize my blog reader a lot better. I have been following a lot of blogs for a long time, but the thing is, I really don't actually read a lot of the posts. And then I feel bad, so I need to figure out a way to separate it so that there are the blogs I never want to miss and the ones I will only be reading if I have time. That way I won't have to spend all my time sorting through a bunch of them in order to find the ones I really want to read. Anyone have any suggestions for doing that??

Happy weekend! :) 

i am roasting

Oh hey there everybody. How's tricks? 

I wasn't planning on blogging today, mostly because um, work (lame), but then I saw this link up from Juliette and changed my mind. 

The point of a honey roast is basically to be the opposite of a.....regular roast(?) I guess. So instead of making fun of myself, I say nice things about myself. Everybody get it? Yes? Moving on. 

// I am really, really patient with people as a general rule. There are a few who can make my blood boil pretty quickly, but for the most part, I'm usually able to handle nonsense for a really long time before I get irritated. And even when I'm irritated I can still go for a long time. 

// I have really neat handwriting. 

// I like making keepsakes, and I do a fairly decent job of documenting life happenings for posterity. Or just for myself to see and remember later on. Whatever. 

// I can make my nephews laugh a lot, and their laughs are pretty much the cutest sounds ever, so that's awesome. 

// I'm really competitive in that I like winning and I'll try hard and all that, but also really not at all competitive in that I usually end up feeling bad if I win, especially if know the other person really wanted to. I will never LET someone win, but it really doesn't bother me if I get beat in a game. 

// I can ration Oreos pretty well. I have had a box of them sitting on my desk for the past week, and I only let myself eat 3 or 4 a day, if that, despite my ridiculous desire from yesterday to literally do nothing but sit and eat Oreos and watch Damon do awesome un-dead stuff on "The Vampire Diaries". 

// I love deeply and fully. I don't half-ass it and call it good. I have a lot of love to give and I think I give it well. And I'm really nice. I'm a person who will always try to be nice, and will always have good intentions.. Though I will admit that sometimes I am misguided about how I come across to people, or in the way I speak/write. 

// I am really pretty organized and neat. And I am learning the value of the phrase "less is more". 

// I will go out of my way to make someone else's day better, or to help those I love. 

// I am a really good reader. I love reading, and I'm really fast (like 500 wpm fast), so I can burn through books pretty quickly. 

// I am willing to admit when I am wrong and apologize if necessary. I prefer to look at things I mess up as opportunities to fix things and get better, and in that sense, I almost prefer things to be my fault, because then I am the one in control of fixing it, and I know that I can change it. 

// I am really good at stealing borrowing blog post ideas from other people because they come up with better ones than I do. (That counts, right??)(P.S. I always give people credit if I use their idea. Just FYI.)

What do YOU like about yourself?