In an effort to write more frequently, I
decided to take part in the Blogging
Every Day in May challenge. I know I’m coming into it a few days behind, so
I’ll be posting quite a few things in the next couple days as I get caught up.
I have a lot of
fears. Some of them are rational (getting hit by a drunk driver, going off the
road in bad weather), but most are not. I am okay with this, despite the fact
that sometimes, my fears cause me mild embarrassment.
More than pretty
much anything else in the world, I am scared of the dark. I know, I know, it’s
kind of juvenile, and completely ridiculous. Rationally, I know that there is
nothing that can hurt me in the dark that couldn’t also hurt me in the light. I
know that turning off my bedroom light does not actually send a signal to all
the monsters lurking about that it’s okay for them to come in and start
haunting me. I know that 99.999% of all the things that scare me about the dark
are completely made up in my head, and have absolutely no bearing on reality
whatsoever. Doesn’t matter. I’m still terrified.
I have thankfully progressed
past the point of sleeping with my lights on all the time, but I do still have
to have a TV on or something, which isn’t exactly healthy, but is at least
marginally better than not sleeping at all because I’m too nervous there’s
something creeping up next to my bed to eat my face off or something. Big thanks
to Amberly for sharing her fear and letting me know I’m not alone in
this!!
I am also
extremely scared of water when I can’t see what’s around me. I am a strong
swimmer, and I love being in pools, regardless of depth, but put me in a lake
or a river, and I freak right out. The ocean, however, doesn’t scare me one
bit. I know that’s weird, since the ocean is home to way more things that could
kill me than a lake or river, not the mention the fact that the ocean itself
could kill me without any help from its inhabitants. Be that as it may,
however, I would take the ocean any day over a river or lake.
One quick side
note about the fear of water thing….I used to be much more afraid of deep water
than I am now, even in a pool. I remember when I would go to the indoor pool in
my town when I was growing up – it is an Olympic sized pool with a 12-foot deep
end, and if it wasn’t very full, I would always imagine something completely
silly and irrational like there being a shark or something in the water. Has
anyone else ever experienced that??
I also have a
strong fear of tanning beds. (Weird? Not weird? I don't know.) I have always been somewhat claustrophobic, so
they’re a little unnerving just for the shut-in aspect alone, but ever since I
saw the preview to whatever Final Destination movie it was where the girl died
in a malfunctioning tanning bed, I’ve been considerably more terrified. It works
out okay for me usually, since I don’t tan very often anyway, but on the rare
occasions that I do, I have to consciously work to slow my breathing and heart
rate, and not freak the heck out and break stuff/burn myself.
What scares you the most, and what do you
do to deal with it?
what's really creepy is the first two are two of my biggest fears...like, within the top three..
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