Day 30: Letting Go...

Letting Go: What does that mean? There’s the physical sense of letting go of something – of physically opening up your arms or hands and releasing that which you were holding. And there’s also the notion of letting go of something in the emotional sense, of giving up trying to fight for something, of accepting that something might not happen the way you had wanted, or of walking away from something that you want but know probably isn’t the best thing for you.

Personally, I don’t like to let go of things. I want to hold on to everything, because I don’t like the idea of giving up on something in which I have been emotionally invested. Plus, if we’re talking about material things, I might need it later, so why would I get rid of it now, just to have to buy it again later? That would be silly. But I digress…

Letting go is really hard. It sucks. It’s terrifying, because most of the time, at least for me, whatever it is that I am letting go is the very thing that is anchoring me. Sometimes the anchor is negative, yes, but it’s often easier to face the evil you do know rather than the evil you don’t.

One of my biggest flaws is that I worry too much, about everything. I am trying/learning to let go of those unnecessary worries, since they do me no good at all, and in fact, probably do the opposite instead. I’m trying to let go of things that are outside my control, and save myself the stress of trying to change things all the time. being in complete control of everything is actually kind of exhausting, so if I can just start to think about what a favor I’m doing myself if I stop insisting on worrying about everything, I think I’ll be doing pretty well.

What do you think about when you hear the term “letting go”?